My husband is NOTHING like that! At all! Don't get me wrong, he is madly in love with Jesus, committed to our marriage, and a devoted and AMAZING father, but he seeks information differently. He doesn't like to read, isn't hugely fond of daily sermons (mine or various pastors), and is content with our church, scripture, music, his accountability partners, and his close circle of godly men for info, advice, spiritual growth, and well.....that frustrates me.
Honestly, that is only the tip of the iceberg regarding our differences. And we are both ALWAYS right....so, as you can imagine, there are definite moments of intense fellowship. I have these
Today, we have hashed this thing back and forth. Not fighting, just talking about desires we both have, areas we are growing in, and I
And so, tonight, while doing what I do, and listening to a sermon series this week, I encountered one entitled "Do Your Thing." I was ready to learn. Except. It kinda
Maybe I'm alone in this, and if I am, then here's my confession. I want him to prosper and grow and have a beautiful relationship with God. But my idea of a beautiful relationship with God is MINE. I have forgotten my prayer that I prayed SO many years ago when he wasn't active in church and I was angry and trying to pray through my anger. I simply asked God to take the anger from me, to work and create a change in ME, and I would trust that He, in His time, would work on my hubs....why? Because it wasn't mine to change. It was His.
And now? Apparently, I have taken that role back. And you know what it's done? It has told my husband that these amazing steps he has taken, the servant's heart he has developed, the leadership role he has assumed in our home (all things I prayed for, mind you) aren't good enough.
Oh. My flaws. My human errors. My desire for perfection (which by the way is NOT godly). So I share all of this to say, I can't do his thing, I can't identify his walk, or which is the right way. I have to do MY thing. I have to have relationship with God the way I'm designed. So, I encourage you, whatever it is you are called to do, your calling is YOURS. Do YOUR thing!